Why....

Hello to anyone reading this! i don't really expect anyone to be reading this, as this is something more to keep myself accountable, but if you are, then thank you and I will explain to you why I decided to blog about my health experiment. I am currently 25 years old, and just moved across the country to be with the man that I love more than anything in the world! When I moved, I left most everything in CA and have started a whole new life out here in NC. That meant finding a new career and trying to figure out what it is that I am passionate about. I spent the last 2 years as a flight attendant, and I absolutely loved it. Sometimes the actual working part sucked, but traveling is something that I am extremely passionate about and hope to do more of in the future. As much as I loved my job, I always felt that it was just a job....something that I enjoyed greatly, but not what I saw myself making a career out of and being happy about. When I decided to move here, I knew that it was time to figure out exactly what it was that I wanted to do with my life and just go for it. I was starting fresh and there was nothing holding me back besides me and my own fears. After much soul searching, I decided that I want to be a personal trainer and help other people gain confidence and become healthy. I am currently working at the front desk of a gym to get my foot in the door, and am now in the process of getting my NASM certification.
I have been an athlete for as long as I can remember (well until I graduated college that is).... staying in shape is something that is and always has been very important to me. The only classes I recall actually being interested in and listening to were my nutrition classes....I consider myself very knowledgeable and passionate about fitness and nutrition, but a lot of the time I don't do what I know I need to. I can tell people exactly how they need to eat and what they need to do to lose weight and be healthy, yet I still find myself turning to the frozen yogurt and candy to satisfy my sweet tooth. I am not fat or out of shape, but my body is not where I would like it to be, and I know I can be better. I have definitely made improvements, as I have stopped eating so many sweets and have been going to crossfit several times a week in addition to other workouts. AJ (the bf) and I have been trying to change our eating habits and trying to cut out most sugars and carbs. We have both come pretty far, however there are a lot of things that can still be improved.
Ok, enough with my blabbering and I will get to the point of this whole thing now....this blog will be a log of what I am eating every day, what I am doing to work out, and how I am feeling physically, mentally, blah blah blah. It is basically my journal to find out what works for me and what doesn't, and a place where I can track my results, and share them with anyone who is actually reading this! I have tried so many different diets, but have never really changed my habits permanently. Since I want to inspire others to be fit and healthy, I need to be those things myself. It's pretty much now or never. Not saying I'll never have sour patch kids ever again, but I just need to make sure I realize how many I am actually eating. I tend to have a problem with moderation in all aspects of life, and need hold a healthy mindset for food, instead of being terrified of it and hating myself for days if I have a piece of cake. I need to change my habits and if I splurge I splurge...no regrets, no more beating myself up! I think it is very important to have a healthy view of food, and I hate to admit it, but I don't...at all. I hate food, but love it at the same time....It consumes my thoughts and emotionally drains me. This blog will also be about my journey to seeing food in a positive and non-terrifying manner. Alright seriously, I am done now. If you read this far, I am impressed.